A Secret

Sitting here staring out into space
Drifting into my daydream once again
Flashing to my mind are images of his face
Flowing to my heart are feelings I cannot explain

I enter a dream sweeter than the sweetest candies
But as unreal as the faintest illusions
I've buried my loneliness with unreal fantasies
I've blinded myself with my own deceptions

I know very well he does not feel the same way
But my heart is stubborn, it refuses to listen
I've tried hard to let go, but to my dismay
I cannot rid my heart of any of these feelings

I ask myself how can I fall for him
When all we have done is exchange gazes
The chances of being together are slimmer than slim
Yet I keep falling, I'm in complete dazes

I feel so tired, I just want it all to end
But I can't find the strength to let him go
I don't want anyone to know, so I pretend
Careful not to let my true feelings show

I'm starting to believe that this is my fate
To live my life always searching for love
How much longer am I suppose to wait
Because my heart has already had enough

Each day I put a smile on my face
To hide the emptiness that my heart holds
A smile that can deceive many without a trace
But never myself, for I know what's untold

Then the shadows fall, my smile fades
And the hidden feelings begin to show
One by one the tears cascade
Each tear telling a story of unseen sorrow

But no one will ever hear these stories
That my heart is silently trying to tell
Because they will never be able to see
The real girl that lies behind this shell