Relief

Ahhh y do shuch little things bother me???? like 2 weeks ago on the fri i was ment 2 go 2 my friends house..my best friemd..and i was really looking foward 2 it and thats really hard 4 me and i was excited and i was gona try not 2 cut until the fri but on the tues my friend goes theres a party on the same night and she didnt no what 2 do i told her 2 go 2 the party because she would have any way...but when she told me my heart just shattered it was the most pain i had ever felt i nearly burst in 2 tears on the bus and as soon as i got home i went straight in 2 my roomand cut really deep and every day that week tues wed thurs fri and even some of sat i just sat in my room and cried so much and it just wouldnt go away and when she found out how upset i was she was really sorry...after the party she sent me a msg saying the party was shit and she wished she was @ home with me but that didnt change the fact she chose the party over me on the weekend i went 2 her house but i couldnt look foward 2 it the same ...and it still hurts and there arestill stupid scars where i cut...last night she didnt have any credit and i thought she was igriiring me and that made me upset and so 2ay i didnt av the strenght 2 go 2 school so i pulled a sicky...and she said she needs me 2 day @ school cuz her friends h8 her i feel guilty 4 not oing i just h8 the fact such stupid things hurt 4 so long...i no they will always hurt but its so stupid...ill stop whining sorry...@ least being home i dont got 2 worry about my friends bugging me 2 eat....but anyway hope ur feeling better..what else u been up 2???? xoxoxc love georgia