Have to let you go

Badly I'm in need
still holding you in my heart
wishing, hoping, dreaming
nothing ever tore us apart

the love and all the pain,
all the tears I've cried
the endless regretful times
my heart would break down and die

even though you broke my heart
i still only dream of you
i want you back, yet i don't
you see, I'm so confused

you were my reason to be on the computer,
to check my caller I.D.
i had you, someone special
someone who loved me for me

even though we lived so far
my love grew for each mile
hanging with you, when i could
was way more then worth while

i know you wouldn't do it again
I'm pretty sure i wouldn't too
i remember thinking my heart would die
if i was alone without you

all though i say i miss you
i pretend I'm doing fine
my heart will eventually let you go
it just takes a little time

this is my last poem ill write to you
i have to let you go
but my heart will desperately miss you
and that for sure i know