Sewn heart

It is great to know
that nobody cares
know that no one supports me
you never were really there

in all honesty,
i feel u lied to me
as if you had a plan, and a premeditated story too
and i never even knew

my excited heart rushed to assumptions
i was just so happy to find someone new
but all my future plans
once again have fallen through

you killed me slowly
and watched me die
you enjoyed seeing me in pain
and laughed when i cried

my heart can't take anymore
i cannot sew it up again
b/c the seams are ripping apart
ever since the last him

i have been torn in two for the last time
i refuse to be hurt, my dignity is lost
who am i kidding
I'm lying to myself

i always say i am done
but then my heart begins to open
i must sew it shut for ever
it will reopen on he 12th of never