Lonely Suicide Note

It's time for me to go,
I just wanted to leave this note.
Maybe then you'll understand why,
Why I had to say good-bye.

To my mom and dad,
You guys always made me sad.
I always believed I was a mistake.
All this time I was being fake.
It's deep inside my head,
Just like you guys once said,
"Why don't you just drop dead?"
Those words hurt so bad
And with my suicide I know you'll be glad.

To my sister,
I hope you can see,
That there's others better than me.
You yourself admitted that,
Oh! how that made me so mad.

To my brothers,
I know we will miss each other.
But you guys were always expecting too much,
I just couldn't take the rush.

To my friends,
It now has to come to an end.
The "help" message I've always tried to send.
But nobody cared,
And I guess that's fair.
I will soon disappear into the air.

I'm sorry.
But for me there won't be any better tomorrows.
Don't feel any sorrow.
Just know I didn't belong here,
Even after every tear,
I won't change my mind.
This is the end of my time.