Painful and so true, God i am crying right now, you know i can relate...I just wish that you didn't have to go through this pain too...Wish that I could make you happy and take all of this away...I always thought, that other people die from this, NOT me, i can control this...I can right now, but who knows if I still can in a year...You are out of control, I can tell hunni...Please be strong, make sure to get help...

I love you