As I sit here, alone on my bed as
I cry,
Hugging myself for comfort.
The love of my life is gone
He left me to die alone.
My eyes burn from all the tears Iâ??ve shed
I stare at the knife I bought sitting on my night stand.
Im very hesitant as I begin reaching
Should I? I think to myself.
The only reason of my existence has
Abandonded me.
Theres nothing left for me.
I pick up the knife and hold it in my hand.
I slide the blade out and study it.
I gently touched my finger to the tip of
The blade.
The color red appeared to my finger.
I look back and forward from my finger
To the blade
Finger
Blade
Finger
Blade.
I pull the sleeves up on each arm to the
Elbows
This pain in my chest is far too unbareable.
I pick the phone and call your number
On speed dial
Your answering machine
Then the beep.
I struggle for the words stuck in my throat
I love you. Goodbye.
I hang up the receiver and turn up the volume
On my stereo,
Repeating the same song over and over
And look back at the knife.
I wipe a tear from my eyes and touch the cold
Blade to my pale white skin.
I dont even have to press down very hard as
I drag the blade down my wrist to the middle
Of my arm.
It leaves a deep valley with a rose red river appearing.
I quickly do the same to my other arm and
Get the same result.
The bloody river flows out fast,
Dripping down my arm onto my white sheets.
My head begins feeling light,
As if it were floating,
Yet my body feels very heavey.
I lean my head back and fall on my pillow.
I stare at my wrists still bleeding as the
Whole room spins.
Im so light, yet I can barely move.
My arm slides from my stomach and
Hangs off the bad as the knife falls
From my hand and hits the floor.
My grip isnt even strong enough to hold it
Anymore.
In the midst of my own ruin,
The phone rings.
I look at the caller ID
Its you.
I try to pick up the receiver, but only knock
It over. I hear a gentle voice
Hello?
I try my best to get the strength to speak
But I cant.
Hello? Are you there
the only sound you hear is the beautiful voice
coming from the speakers of my radio.
-Sing me to sleep, Sing me to sleep. I dont want
to wake up on my own anymore
Your voice gets louder and more scared.
NOOOOO!...PLEASE ANSWER ME!
I find the words to say and the strength to say them.
I am so sorry I love you.
WHAT?!? OH GOD? NOOOO!!!!!
You scream as I knock the whole phone on the floor.
I stare into nothing as a few tears run down my face.
My breaths get shorter and shorter.
I am sinking slowly into darkness.
I am so tired, so weak.
I shut my eyes just to rest.
I breathe in
And breathe out
I am asleep.
A deep sleep.
Ill never wake up again.
~Sing to me, Sing to me. And then leave me alone.
Dont try to wake me in the morning, because
I will be gone.~
