Alone

You look at me and smile, promise me it's going to be alright, so why is my stomach so tight? Why is my mind screaming no and my heart is thumping so hard?
I turn off the lights so you can't see the tears in my eyes. I want to do this but at the same time I am afraid of being this close. What if something goes wrong and you leave me alone?
What if you don't really love me, and this is all pretend? You whisper the words I am afraid to hear, I'll love you tonight and for the rest of your life. I want to believe but for some reason my heart won't let me!
I can't do this with all this doubt, I need to be alone, please just get out! You shake your head and walk away, you don't tell me you love me, you don't tell me anything!
My fear has came true, I pushed you away and instead of the reassurance I need...you leave me alone...