No Title. {Again}

Sitting on my bed,
Rocking back and forth..
Repeating to myself
"I'm not dead...
"I'm not dead.. I'm not "

Trying to ignore the screeching voices
Hiding within my head

I jump a little
At the sound of thunder;
Flash of lightning

I close my eyes
To find
The faces of the voices..
{Dead corpses}
And they only get louder..

Clenching my teeth
And biting my tongue..
They won't go away!
Why won't they go away?!

They're right, they're right...
I'm empty inside.
I'll always be nothing...
I'm a failure. A failure.

They still won't stop..
Even after i surrender..
God please help me...
Don't leave me now!

My room is spinning...
Faster and faster
Quicker and quicker..
The voices all taunting
Why don't they ever stop?!

Fists full of hair..
I'm pulling, and I'm pulling..
Causing this pain,
To distract me from them all..

Now I'm pacing around the room
Unable to calm down..
Faster and faster..
I need an idea..
I need to stop them..
They have to stop!

They're screaming...
I have to make them stop!
I know I'm selfish!
I know I'm a failure!
I know I'm emotionless!
I know, I know!

Tears pour out,
In rhythm with the rain..
Thunder crashes.
More lightning flashes..
I collapse on the floor
I know he won't care..
When he knows the truth..
I know my friends don't love me..
I know..
Just go..

*Don't ask.. It's sucky. And weird. I know.*