Could this be the Pain that I feel?

Could this be real?
Could this be the pain that I feel?
If it is, Will you please take it all away?
Can you spare me one last moment, before it all fades?

I don't want another heartbreak
I don't need another heartache.
For this emotion inside of me
Is tearing me up to the seams.

You have caused great damage,
deep within my heart.
You have filled up that hole
and made me complete from the start.

I need you to know
that all I ever did was let my love for you show.
That may be the cause of it all
as you watched me fall.
So please let me know
if what you're feeling is the same,
just tell me what it is, so I can't take the blame.

I don't need this anymore
I don't need this troublesome feeling
that's hitting the bottom, touching me to the core.
I'm emitting a chronic feeling
could it be the butterflies in my stomach? or of my heart's beating?
Just tell me why you stayed

While you constantly tugged at my heart
Made me change my ways, torn me up apart,
Made me re-build myself from inside out
make me have to repair myself, keeping it all inside of me.

Love's a dangerous feeling once felt for someone
Love's not something to toy with
especially when it's hurting inside.

Love's something I loathe and despise.
It's not for me to feel
It never was something I longed to feel for someone.