As I close my eyes for the first time
Memories of why I would cry
Flood my mind with no escape.
Even my imagination can't free me
Held down by those closest to me.
As they blindly hurt my soul
Not realizing how so and they wonder why I want to go.
In my world there is no leaving only screaming
Terrified of living a life of a shadow.
There is no door into my heart
Only shattered pieces of what was found deep inside.
Not even the best of memories can mend
What I must fend, from day to day.
Trying to stay, strong willed
Falling on my knees to bow
In front of the monster that keeps me in chains.
Yells of asking for help go unheard
Drown out by my inability to show the hurt I feel.
Deprived of my state of mind
In that I cannot find salvation from this pain
