Thats so powerful, you can talk to me anytime, leave me a comment if you want my email, i may not have ansers but i am a ear, and we can see what ideas come up from there alright

Definatly love the poem and the way you caught that feeling exactly,
i have spent going on 4 years now going out as much as possible looking for the fullness of something that i found in the party world, being the cool party guy that everyone liked to be around is where i hid myself. and from all of that it taught me who i was and just about everything i know. so dont get to frustrated with it, embrace it for what it is find the silver lining, i have a poem life of a wino, but there is a line in it,"theres always alot you can learn about yourself with a bottle in your hand" i dunno sorry to life story you but its like 6 am and i cant sleep and i felt like a life story, but just get comfortable with yourself and all of the other bullshit goes away. hope all is well.