Escaping the Pain

Why do i continue to lie?
i feel as these things i must deny,
i tell myself these things arent real,
then over whelming pain i start to feel,
i want to go to a land of dreams as i sleep,
a place where these pains i can defeat,
i continue to find myself laying on the floor,
the only thing going threw my head is what for,
why the f**k did i let her down?
why are my words spoken without a sound?
my words are lost in total silence,
my actions are starting to turn toward violence,
never to let these things go, i keep them deep within,
the things that tear me apart are just beneath my skin,
cut me open, see if they will escape,
do you feel this pain, do you think you can relate?
i found a happy place in the pouring rain,
a place where i can go to escape the pain.