My Life At This Moment

I don't know how to feel right now
Its so difficult to read your face
When I see you, I just frown
Cos I want you, but Iam just a disgrace

I can't ever get what I want
I don't deserve anything
This is my life
I receive pain, nothing to gain

Its pathetic how I talk like this
I am not usually emotional
But for some reason, I can't be bliss
I'm just running around in circles

It's like I'm back in the past
Locked up inside, nothing to live for
Living a cell, empty and black
Wanting to go out and search the world

But something always holds me back
A demand, my father, or maybe fate is
I don't want to go back to that
But suddenly, this all hit me with a flash

I can never run far
I must remain strong
Even if I have to crawl, to get what I want
I'll do what I can to get it