(46) Not so perfect after all

Run home
fast through the door
grab pills && blade
fall to the floor

shove down the pills
push down my blade
my hidden life
is still in the shade

never show emotions
never see me sad
to broken inside
you just see my bad

screaming in my head
so no one hears my mad
no one know about me
and know one knows I'm sad

you cheated on me
and you say it isn't true
i know your stupid lies
which are making me so blue

slit my wrists
wanna die
don't care for anything
so ill now say goodbye

i hate everyone
my arms bruised and bleeding
my life is such a joke
i spend most of it screaming

you tell me to forget
don't care anymore
my life is torn and ruined
and my heart is feeling sore

you try to pretend
that everything is fine
when i hate my stupid life
and I'm just try'na die

iv done too much bad
and too much has happened to me
but ill never tell you
what in my life i had to see...