I'd love to hear your voice so full of life again
I'd love to tell you what I'm holding in my heart
And yet, I can't bring myself to tell these words
For I know they'll be like daggers in your heart
I never want this cancer to win
And I don't want you to have false hope
Every time I look into your eyes,
I can never ignore the battle and the hurt
You are fighting with every single day
I love you mom, and I always shall
But I don't want you to fight so hard
I want you to let go
There is too much pain you have to bear
And every night I wish I could take that pain away
Each and every day, you return home, tired and worn out
And every night I cry myself to sleep
Life doesn't have to be this way dear mom
There is so much beauty you are missing out
I can't bear to see you this way,
You are weak, and the future seems so unimportant
Now that this cancer is spreading so fast
I can't bear it if you'll be gone away from me forever
But neither do I want you to fight this battle so hard
These two mixed up feelings are swimming in me every night
Yet I can't seem to make a right decision
It's hard being your heart medicine
And everyone else's best friends
It hurts when people out there can dream of the next five years
When the furthest I can think is wondering if you'll be with me next year
These feelings I have got to battle with a smile
Maybe life isn't beautiful like people say
Maybe life isn't black an white, maybe it's gray
But if you are with me all along this journey of life,
I'd be the happiest girl on earth
