The smile I fake

Slowly the tears
Roll from my eyes
I'm screaming for help
But no one hears my cries

All this pain
I cannot take
I hide how I feel
Behind a smile I fake

Trying to stay smiling
As the tears stain my face
I can't do it anymore
Because my life is a race

I'm forced to quit
I can't stand the pain
People think my life is heaven
But truly, it's just rain

Taking my life
Is a stupid mistake
But what am I supposed to do
With all the pain I can't shake

I doesn't work that way
The pain I just can't forget it
What am I supposed to do?
I'm scared I have to admit

A soaking wet pillow
Is how I awake
But I make everything better
By putting on the smile I fake

I'm walking a line
Between life and death
Should I follow God's plan?
Or will the bullet steal my last breath?

I can't do it any longer
I'm sick of this pain
There's so many problems
But who is to blame?

I can't do it anymore
I'm about to break
But I hide it all
Behind a smile I fake