Too Deep

She's bleeding inside....But no one can see.
She has bruises that she hides with long sleeves.
As beautiful as she is, she is bound to wear sweat pants and shirts that wont reveal the truth.
No on can know or it will be worse.
She tries to lead a normal life
But when someone asks hows she is doing, she freezes.
Added to the bruises she learns to release her own pain.
With this razor blade to her wrist.
Learned to love the sight of her own blood.
She doesn't want to kill herself but sees that as her last and only resort.
Cutting has become her passion.
Loving every drip of blood.
Thinking she deserves every bit of pain.
Sometimes she worries that this cut will be too deep.
Sometimes she wishes this cut is too deep.
But numbness seeps in and she feels alright.
Shes lieing to herself.
Saying this cut will be the last.
But in a couple more hours after a slap to the face, she's cutting again.
Hoping this cut wont be too deep but maybe that would solve everything.