Well I don't know what else to say, I love him and thats okay, and he loves me too but not that way. Time is suppose to heal everything but I guess it doesn't like me, its ignoring me, and despising me, I feel like running and hiding. The pain I feel about him is huge, enough to cause a bruise and when it comes to getting him, I always lose. I choose to be by myself so that I'm open if he decides to come back, thats slack, and now I'm thinking a little distraction wont be too bad, and its sad how I cant get over him, I'm pulled to him. And I keep being dragged on the ground, because he doesn't seem to want me around. I feel lost and unfound. I really and truly don't know what to do, I honestly haven't got a clue. Maybe if I burn his pictures that will help, but I'm scared to because that might help. Deep down I don't want to get over him, because I love him, no one else above him. Why cant he think of me the same way. Its hard to say, maybe he doesn't love that way.
