5 years ago

5 years ago

I tried to stop thinking,
about how miserable I am without you.
You were my number one person,
I'm not sure what to do.
I used to pray up to heaven,
Asking for an answer to my prayer.
But when I didn't get one back,
I started not to care.
I thought it didn't matter,
Because I seemed so down.
That maybe one day I'd just turn out fine,
And I wouldn't have this frown.
But when you left, Grandma,
My whole world fell apart.
I'm still picking up little pieces,
Of my once full heart.
It hurt me so god damn much,
When I saw you lying in the casket, looking asleep,
And I laid my favorite teddy bear in your arms,
The one for you to keep.
As a single tear rolled down my cheek,
I whispered I love you.
And when my mom pulled me away,
My heart broke in two.
It was our last day together,
The last time I'd ever see my favorite person.
That was 5 years ago,
And I'm still hurting.

Sometimes I lay in my bed,
And think about the times with you.
I wonder how you're doing,
And if you think about me too?
Are you watching over me, Grandma?
Do you miss it down here?
Is everyone treating you alright?
Do you have anything to fear?
I didn't want to lose you,
You were my hope and pride.
You're my hero, My number one,
Even though I've died inside.
I miss you, I want you here,
Even though it's impossible.
It would be easier with you back,
My life would be full.
But since you can't be here,
I only reach you in one way.
To pray for you at night,
And hope for another day.

*-ilu grandma.. miss you

By: Heidi
May 27 2006