When i awake in the morning i relies i am drowning.
not in water or in blood in a pool of self loathing.
with a fake smile i greet the day.
with my heart you did play.
maybe you should have been more carefull.
now I'm crying all alone, this really pitiful.
i made promises that I'm finding hard to keep.
the road is to rocky and way to steep.
I'm used to having you by my side.
our love was like an ocean deep and wide.
i weep when i glance at your picture that hangs upon my wall.
its like a dagger struck my heart to my knees i fall.
people tell me my heart will slowly heal in time.
but they no nothing of whats forsaken to be only mine.
with this broken heart i wonder if it will ever heal.
its only been about a week but it feels like a year.
they try to help but only seem to make it worse.
I feel like my insides are preparing to burst.
no more can i hide it i feel it tearing through my skin.
I'm sorry my beautiful baby Ive committed the ultimate sin.
i turned my back and let it leave i denied my angels love.
thats why I'm on this cliff to give myself a shove.
when I'm falling slowly but surely i will have to stop.
i just wish i would have picked a longer drop.
treading through the darkness i find a special place.
where i feel no presence of evil just my little space
crawling through the mud in a garden of dead forgotten flowers.
i find myself reflecting on my choices passing all the hours.
on this journey to find love I'm beginning to feel weak and weary.
this is turning into a nightmare far from feeling any bit dreamy.
i apologize for the way i made you hurt.
cant you just forgive and help me out of the dirt.
even though I'm dirty sick and may appear a little many.
i still know i need your love to cleanse me my little baby.
admitting love is denying hate.
now lower your walls open the gate.
i hate the days for the way they fled.
i wonder where words go after they are said.
the only question is can a heart ever truly really heal.
or is it up to you to find another one to steal.
i guess I'm left with no answer.
so the pain in my heart will grow like cancer.
please my angels you must help me find.
what is truly eternally mine.
