Silence Is On My Lips

The silence is on my lips
And the blade is on my wrist
I wait for the new blood to drip
My suicide note is more like a list

Tears are running down
Across my pale cheeks
I cannot make a sound
Not until I find the answers I seek

The blade bites into my arm
I bite my lip, stopping the scream
Now I am frenzied, not calm
The blood starts to stream

Watch in silent awe
And watch the losing of me
I don't know what you saw
Yes, this truly must be

The blood is flowing
Down my arm onto the ground
It shows no sign of slowing
This puddle of pain shall be found

I sit on the bed, lying back
The blood trail leads to me
The blood slowly dries to black
All this disaster you can see

My head is upon your pillow
Your scent still there
Soon the puddle is a creek, so shallow
Blood on your pillow, I hope you don't care

I cut again, deeper
I want to feel pain that is real
Don't think I'm an innocent sleeper
These gashes will never heal

I can almost see you at this instant
As you find me dead
But you seem faded, distant
Come sit beside me on the bed

Cradle my dead remains
Find your inner scream
You must know how much this pains
But this is how I let off steam

Plead to me to live
Tell me to wake up
Promise all these things to give
Promise we can go and dress up

Cry when there's no reply
Say you're sorry over and over again
Tell me all the love you would supply
If only my heart began

Slap my dead face
And try to get me back
You don't want me to fall from grace
My lips are already black

Covered in my blood
Run for help, already too late
It has stopped, my little flood
This is my fate

The silence is on my lips
I won't wake from my demise
The blood no longer drips
I can still hear your cries

The blood drips from my spirit
Trails me to the light
There is no reason to deceive it
I died without a fight

I've disappeared
Give up your useless plight
In a way the you have feared
I have given up life's fight

Find the letter
Read it aloud
"It's ok. I'll feel so much better
I will go honestly. I'll leave without a sound"

"I'm gone from the pain
Don't worry anymore
You have none of this blame
My blood should just reach the shore"

Gone without a goodbye
Gone without a sound
I couldn't cry
In the tears, I would have drowned