Part2 DEREK IM MISSING YOU....

I know I\'m taking this hard...
I\'ve tried to make this easy,
But by doing that it\'s just making it plain worse,
I went to your wake yesterday,
It was the hardest thing I\'ve ever had to do,
I got up to the guest book,
And I wrote my name,
Then I could see your hat from far away,
And I just broke down and had to walk away,
I then went back later on just so I could actually see your face,
And you didn\'t look at all the same,
The hat you wore was one of your favorite things in the world,
That camouflage hat will stay forever in my mind,
And everytime I see the camouflage print,
A picture of you will cross my mind,
It\'s going to be hard,
Knowing I\'ll never be able to see you by myside,
Or knowing I\'ll never be able to see you walk through the school halls,
Or not seeing that smile that could make anyones day all worth while,
I\'m going to miss every bit of you,
Even all your flaws,
I\'m going to miss your voice,
And how you use to talk about hunting and fishing all the time,
I\'m going to miss all the jokes you use to tell,
And I\'m going to miss your favorite quote:Get Er Done...
I\'m so lost for words....
Everything...
It just hurts so bad...
Knowing your gone...
I\'ll never forget you Derek....
No one could ever take your place...
And I can\'t wait for the day I get to see your face....
Again...
I know I\'ll see you someday again..
And I know waiting will feel like forever,
But I know it will be all worth it,
I hope that the day I die,
You\'ll meet me at the gates,
So we can embrace,
I can\'t wait to see that smile of yours,
Because I know that when I die that will be what will make it worth the while,
I\'m so heartbroken,
And all I\'ve done is cry,
People say it will get easier,
And I just hope there right,
Because trying to hold these tears in is a big fight,
I don\'t want to cry all the time..
Because I know you\'d want me to be happy,
But nothing will ever be the same without you...
I\'d do anything just to see you one more time...
Just so I could say my goodbyes,
i would walk tohell and back in the rain,
Just to see you once more,
You left a huge footprint in my heart,
And boy does it hurt,
I miss you so much,
Your...
Always on the mound,
Always in my heart,
Derek your forever...............
Everytime I look up at the stars,
I\'ll think of you,
Because Derek you shined brighter than anyone/anything I knew
And I really wish you didn\'t have to go...
I wish you didn\'t leave me here all alone....
I wish you were still here.......
And maybe I would\'ve been the girl you\'d hold...
I can\'t imagine what your parents are feeling....
Because they knew you the most...
And I know that there hearts must be aching...
Going to prom next year isn\'t going to be the same...
Knowing you weren\'t around to be able to go to such a special thing...
Knowing you will never graduate...or get married...or have a family...
It hurts me you know...
To have to let someone so special go...
This year I do regret...
Not being so close to you...
As I could\'ve been....
I wish I could turn back time,
Just so I could be with you a little longer,
And maybe have made you mine...
Even if it was for a short time....
I would have loved to have been in your arms...
It would have made me feel at home..
And maybe then I could\'ve known all of you,
For I only knew some of you...
But the some I knew,
It helped me get through...
Get through life that can be so cruel...
I\'m going to end this with a few last thoughts...
There will never be a day that goes by that I won\'t think of you,
And you\'ll always have a special place in my heart,
And I\'ll always love you,
And miss you...
And I can\'t wait till the day we meet again....
I love you Derek Allan Johnson...
And that always will be true...
Your my shooting star...
And I\'ll always try to watch you from afar....
I Love You...
And I\'ll Miss You...
May You Rest In Peace
Derek Allan Johnson
Sept.17 1989-May24 2006
Love,
Stephanie