Suicide a lil note

To people who mite read this...
These feelings of being a mess up,
I just cant bare no more,
Depression,
Caused from that,
I have been straight for a while now,
but it doesn\\\'t seem like people look at that,
I\\\'m doing so good,
I wasn\\\'t wanted when i was born,
My family hates the one i love more then anything in this world,
The one i love doesn\\\'t believe me about the one big thing i messed up,
I just want to for him to believe me,
Cause its the truth,
So I take this gun,
Put 2 bullets in it,
Put it to my head,
Pull the trigger slowly,
And there i lay,
Blood everywhere,
Death came for me,
It was this for me to die,
It is what the world wanted.