The Curse

Am I really this cursed?
Could this be the worst?

Am I loosing my best friend?
Who doesn't intend?

Am I screaming so loud?
But nothing comes out?

Am I falling fast?
Is this how I'm going to last?

Am I fading away?
Turning the skies to grey?

Am I making a mistake?
Living life this way?

Am I too revealing?
To feel the bleeding?

Am I feeling out of place?
Like I'm in some kind of race?

Am I in a game for my life?
Knowing I'll take the knife?

Am I in race against time?
As I'm about to loose my mind?

Will someone catch my tears?
Will he know all of my fears?

Will he ever hold me close?
Knowing he'll never let go?

Am I going to fix this?
Can I ever get my wish?

Am I going to die alone?
In the dark..or on the phone?

May my memories rest in peace
As I cry myself to sleep...