Time and time again

We've had our ups and downs

laugh and disappointments

After all that i have said

time and time again

you were always there for me

And still are

Ive said so many things

time and time again

hoping i would stop saying the things i was saying

Though every time you would take me back as a friend

Maybe because you know how much i care about you

or maybe you know when you leave you will done with my shit

Though Ive messed up numerous of times,

I know what Ive done wrong

I am sure of it this time around

i feel like you hate me in a way

Maybe i feel sorry for myself

i don't know

what i do know is what i did wrong

i thought about our friendship to much

tried to make it perfect as can be

which ruined everything

I worried More than i should have

I thought about things way to much

And made to many assumptions

I thought to much about what could happen to you rather than living in the moment

I was negative in same ways maybe lots

i didn't mean all these things

I sat and thought about this

trying to see how i could put this all into words

I now know what Ive done wrong

I now not to do that anymore

you told me not to fix my self for you

i did.... i had to

because inside i felt like shit

i know sorry doesn't cut in anymore Ive it to many damn times.. and i know it got to the point where you don't even believe it anymore

My deepest apologies got to you

i haven't felt this horrible.. before...
I shouldn't of complained about all the shit i was complaining about

i hope we are cool again

I am now here and ready to show you that i am not what i used to be

all i did was complain.. n you did it all

you were there

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