Sucide is apart of my Life!

Can my life get better?
Or is it gonna stay?
Can It start again?
Or will it go away?
Can I ask you something?
Why did God choose me?
Can I take It back?
Or will it always be?
Can I find my mom?
But why did she leave me here?
Can I stop this hurting?
WHO will wipe away my tears?
Can you make me happy?
Then why am I so sad?
Can you tell me exactly why?
Why were you so mad?
Can you take my life?
Cause I don't want to live
Can you tell me why you left?
I have my life to give
Can you tell my dad
That it'll be OK,
Ill be waiting for him
And Ill see him soon.. one day
Cant somebody hear me?
Promise you wont cry?
Cause it was my decision
It was my choice to die
Can you promise something?
Please smile when I go
I should have told my love my heart
I guess he'll never know
Can you understand me?
I'm sorry but it's true
I couldn't handle all the shit
That I was going through
My spirit inside, was captured
But I've just set it free
Tell everyone I'm sorry
But if you would only see

I couldn't take the pain
Don't forget I'll wait right here
To see you once again
I love you for your friendship
Promise not to cry,
I'll see you in another life
I love you..and goodbye