Wondering, walking, going

Walking in the forest
with birds singing their songs
I envy them,
those without worries

I walk in the river
the water floats gently
it's cool and undeep
but still I drown in the heat

Now I'm home
you're standing in front of me
asking me where I was
and I can see the rage coming

I was out, just wondering
You don't believe a word of it
hit me in the face and call me names
turn your back at me

and I go, back to the forest
and envy those without worries
and I go back to the river
wishing that I could drown in it

I'm sitting on the bridge
throwing stones in the edge
crying tears and make it rain
tears that you should have seen

But you didn't