Don\'t Let Go

I gaze deep into your eyes and I know you haven't got a clue
I only wish that you could see how much i truly care for you
and though I'm not sure why, lately it just seems
that as time keeps passing by, things have changed between you and me.
it's nothing that you've done or anything you've said
it's all these thoughts and emotions that keep running through my head
i can't stop thinking about the past, the things i wasn't there for the fact that she still hangs around, worries me even more.
you tell me that you've both moved on, and i want nothing more than to believe
that she's from your old life and now there's only room for me.
but as much as i hate it, i don't think thats true
i see the way she smiles and the way she looks at you
i see the way you wonder and think about the past
i know that you'll always remember but never know why it didn't last.
...
but then i feel your arms around me, so gentle and so close
you whisper that youâ??ve missed me, that's what hurts the most
but i can't keep going on like this, i'm already far too deep
with every smile and every kiss, the more and more i see
i'm at the turning point, it's all or nothing now
it's easier to just give up while you can, or at least that's what i've found
we're only in highschool, even without this it will soon all end and my mind just keeps screaming, get out now while you can
for if i learn to love you even more than i already do
the chances of me not getting hurt are very very few
so even though i don't want to, iâ??m going to leave you soon
i know that's really low and selfish for me to quit on you,
but my mind keeps telling me that you're just the same
this time i want to escape all of that hurt and all of the pain.
.....
so why haven't i done it, why don't i just let go?
why must i make this task so agonizing and so slow?
why can't i just look you in the eye and say it's all over?
why can't i just tell you a lie and say that there is another?
........
then my troublesome mind stops and my heart takes control,
i feel the emotions swelling inside me and it is then that i know.
i've got to get over this, i have to push through
if i quit and give up now it isn't fair to me or to you.
i have to overcome this fear, if i'm ever going to love
i have to take the good with the bad, learn to push and to shove.
let's face reality, everyone is going to hurt you
but finding the one person worth the pain is when you know it's true.
i can't stop or let go of you now, because if i finally do...
i'll spend my whole life wondering if my one person was always you.