Here i sit and look back on the past
all of the loves and friendships that didn't last
all the people that forgot about me
all the loves that weren\'t meant to be
the first day i walked into high school i saw my friends face
our friendship is now over hatred is where love was once placed
him and my girl started talking and they became friends
but now hes hurting her and i don't want her to end up like me in the end
now here i stand looking in the mirror
it reminds me of when i was talking to a boy that night my heart broke because he true feeling became clearer
like all the others he tore me apart
then there were so many times when i couldn't go to sleep so i layed up in the dark
looking back on all the pictures and notes thinking they were all fake
going to school thinking about how some ppl were just a mistake
walking down the hall holding my ex's hand
there was always pain in my eyes that he didn't understand
so many times when i cried at night
but then i would call my girls and they would make everything alright
there was this one boy that i met in July
but in the end he didn't turn out to be that nice of a guy
he tried to cheat on me with my best friend
he turned out to be so fake in the end
it hurt alot when we stopped talking
i finally gave up on what we had so i left and starting walking
me and him never went out
but when i was in pain he was all i could ever think about
but what we had is over and done
in the end things weren't that fun
its sad when someone you know becomes someone you knew
and someone who you thought was fake in the end turns out to be so true
then my girl met a boy
and her heart was filled up with so much joy
but then he went and changed
and then my girl was in so much pain
then there were late night phone calls
talking and holding hands in the halls
there were plenty of makeups to breakups
to smiles and frowns
old friends and new friends to being crazy all over the town
sometimes there were nights that didnt turn out to be that good
crying at night wanting to take back what i could
having to let go of loves that i wanted to hold onto forever
the day i wanted to let go of them would be never
songs that were dedicated to me
like we belong together, like you, true love, and last but not least meant to be
love songs and getting dressed to impress
hearts breaking, him not sparing me half a breath
makeup on my face
eyes shadow to hide the tears that were once placed
football games on Friday nights
making up after a huge fight
sneaking in and out of my home
but still having to go to bed feeling alone
carving his name on my skin
each night doing it all over again
a guy being my first and then i wasn\'t a virgin anymore
ppl walking in and out of my life's door
getting presents on holidays
thinking bout all of my crazy days
yeah that was my 9th grade year
it was great even though i did shed tears
i have made alot of great friends
but this is where the school year ends
(dedicated to my girl dalal and dalal if ur reading this i dont know what i would do with out u i love u so much)
