Dear someone 2

This is to someone,
I'm not quite sure who. but I'm depressed and i feel so worthless, so lonely. I have everything a person could want, good parents, and a wonderful boyfriend. But every once in a while, I can't help but break down.I feel like I'm running out of time,like everyone's gonna leave me behind.I wanna cry, but tears are just stinging my eyes.I wanna be near someone, I don't wanna be left alone. But I get scared at the mere touch of even a friend. Just a touch on the shoulder sends shivers down my spine.I want to sleep. I'm so tired. Because my mind doesn't let me sleep. I spend all night tossing and turning. I hit myself in my sleep. I'm afraid. I'm afriad the dreams will come again. I'm afriad I'll hurt myself more, maybe this time I won't wake up. My dreams kill me more each night.I haven't seen his face in weeks, but now, with just one dream from last night, my emotions are running wild. With thoughts of confusion and misery once again. Will it ever end? Will everything ever be "normal" again? Can you tell me? can you help me?Who ever reads this, please know that this is not a cry for attention. Just a letter from another person in this world with everyday pain, every day pain that some people like myself have harder times to cope with it.

signed,
scared kc