Waiting around wishing to find a sense of hope.
Sitting alone just trying to cope.
Pain is tattooed on my heart, with no way to stop it i deal with the anguish.
Dreaming of the happy days wondering why all my nigga's vanished.
At the age of 5 you both left me alone without a friend
I wasn't ready for it 2 end.
Grandma why did u have to go
you were my only hero.
I cried every night waiting for you 2 return,but then i realized i had to stop being stubborn and let all my sorrows burn.
But daddy why did you pack up and flee? I thought you loved me.
I grew up with a drunk as a father but that's ok because that made me even stronger.
You abounded me and Ryan when we needed you most but now you and shit you just a ghost!
September 25th i wake thinking it was just another day
Not knowing that was going to be the day that i was left a stray.
B was left in the street, but lil did we no he had no heart beat.
Tears were shed, hearts were broken, dreams were left unspoken.
Even though he couldn't win were still pouring out a lil gin.
September 4th was the day i thought i made a big mistake.
But lil did i know that was the one night i laid awake.
Dreaming of you and thanking God that you were my boo.
But as time went by are love went down hill
I couldn't take the heart break so i began popping pills.
As i wake i realize that's the last day i will ever see you
You don't have a clue of what your putting me threw.
Seeing you locked away, my whole world has turned gray.
I no i might be foolish but are love will never vanish!
Waiting for another day of horror
My self esteem is getting lower.
Fear of being like my dad makes me grow up being so sad.
I've turned into a bitter person and i let it all out by cursin.
I'm waiting for the day that i will be alright, but that day will never come because i already lost the fight!
