Why am i not smiling?

"why are you not smiling"
i despise that question
is there a reason to smile?
when all you have is burden
you want to shout out your pain...
and just as I was bursting inside
there you are, asking
"why are you not smiling?"

"why are you not smiling?"
I hope I was deaf so as not to hear
the question I hate most
I am born this way!
Silently whispering to the birds
That they could send my prayers
To the clouds who seemed blind
To the cries I've always hide
And even Heaven was asking
"why are you not smiling?"

"why are you not smiling?"
It's been a hundred times that you've asked
But not like a mother who knows
every must of her child
You walk with me every single day
on the paths where leaves are falling
like the tears when i am weeping
still i go unnoticed, speechless...
these are times when i want to sleep
in seclusion, forever.
so my ears could never hear
and my heart could never grieve
If I will be asked about this again
"why am I not smiling?"