What will i do if i lose him just like i lost you?
How will i deal with all the pain?
How can I just sit and watch every one cry?
I dont want to believe its true, its like we are all in denial.
Why cant this all just be a bad dream?
The last four years have been the worst.
Im scared to go to the hostbital,
scared to see him in the pain that you went through your last days.
I dont know if i can watch him in so much pain. He is so strong and tuff, everone tells me, he will be just fine, but none of that even helped you. so why should it be different for him?
I love him so much, just as i loved you, why ae all my loved ones returning back to heaven?
On the days that are the worst i think of what you said to me that last time, i remember it so well, you told me you and grandma love me so much, i will never forget the look on your face.
I wonder what his last words are going to be, will i ever be there? Will i ever hear his voice again?
Im lost and confused, scared of reality, i just wish that you were here to hold me and tell me what to do.
