I remember lying underneath the stars
Picking out constellations that you've never heard of.
I showed you Cassiopeia
You showed me Orion's Belt.
I made a million different wishes on a million different stars;
You looked for all your answers
Hoping the stars would tell you.
We held hands, lying on that grassy hill
And when I shivered you pulled me close and kissed me.
You whispered "I love you" with your face to the sky.
You wrapped me up in your jacket with you
And I can't even begin to explain the way I felt just then.
I remember thinking that I could spend the rest of my life
Right there
With you
As the cool March wind made me shiver again.
My thoughts were as clear as the stars;
This was what I wanted for my forever.
Through days of rain and snow and overcast winter skies
I never saw a single star
But that night remained strong in my mind.
I passed the grassy hill and I thought of you
Pulling me closer to keep me warm;
To kiss me.
I always associated that blue and white school with you
And the wind
And the stars.
It was my one lasting memory that never faded
Because I had never felt anything as sure as what I felt that night.
The stars belonged to you and me
Even if you and me didn't exist anymore.
In my mind, that night sky was only ours.
I was deceived.
You shared our beauty and our stars with her.
You found your answers with her
Underneath the sky that brought me to tears
If you weren't by my side.
You sat on the same hill and held a different hand.
When she shivered, I'm sure you pulled her close
Maybe even kissed her like you did me.
You probably whispered I love you, but to her
Not to the stars.
And when you held her, I know the stars were telling you
That this was where you belonged.
The only thing that comforts me about this whole situation
Is I know that she wasn't wishing for you.
I hope this breaks your heart.
I lay beside you now
Staring at a white painted ceiling as the night falls outside the window.
The stars might not come out tonight
But even if they do they will not be the right ones.
They will not hold the magic
Or the beauty
Of that night.
You still watch the stars; you still watch the stars with her.
And every time that first star of the night catches my eye,
I'm reminded that it's not shining for you and I
For I am not your star anymore.
