Let this pass

I think you know how i feel
i don't hide anything, i say what is real
It took a long time for me to face the truth
And i guess this is the only thing I'm left go do

I understand that you're busy all of the time
You're supposed to live your life and i will live mine
It kills me that I'm messaging you... trying to keep in touch
And you're doing your work, you have too much

I'm only a teenager who came to you for help
And that's what i got and you helped me out well
But what i wanted was you to stay around forever
Forever was cut short and now i only see you whenever

That's not what i wished for every night
I wished for you to stay in my life
But how can you do that with me
If you're busy constantly?

Maybe friends are right, and i should let go
Maybe it's time... i really don't know
It makes me cry to think of me stopping this now
But I'll get through, I'll figure out how

I don't want you to worry if I'm doing OK
Because this healing process is hell, what else can i say?
I can let you go and erase any communication with you
If that is something that you would want me to do

I care and miss you so much every day
And that's something i never heard you say
Which makes me realize that I'm over my head
And now I'm embarrassed with everything i ever said

I'm never going to be a friend to you
I won't ever be known in your life too
This is what I THINK and i could be wrong
But just listen as i go along

You made me laugh, cry and understand
That life does offer a helping hand
And when i needed you right away
You were there to make it all OK

I remember so much, i didn't know i possibly could
But if you want me to tell you, i really would
I don't wanna be a pain in the ass
Who tries to keep in touch when i should let this pass