If Our Love Were A Play

Your eyes drill holes into my heart
A preparation for your public debut
The crowd files in, whispering names
But tonight its all about you

I breath in and take my place on stage
Heaven's spotlight never felt so cold
I hesitate to begin, catching your eyes
But its your heart that's hard to hold.

I'd give up anything, everything for you
If you want a light, by God I'll bring the sun
And if, by chance, you want a happy ending
By god, don't doubt I'll give you one.

In such a case, you say my love is suffocating
Do you know that you could put a gun to my head
Pull the trigger, then say "I'm sorry."
And I would still forgive you when I'm dead?

Angel, you walk with such deceiving grace
The crowd is compelled to stop and stare
I smile as I know the ending you crave
You act out lies but of this I'm well aware.

You can't fool me any longer with a smile,
Because I see past that one, too.
You once said this love was about us both
But all along its been about you.

I speak the lines straight from the heart
Say, "Darling, I love you so."
And you pull out your gun, hold it to my head
And say, "Baby, you gotta let this go."

I pull you closer to me with a fluid reach,
And your breaths sweet like a kiss,
I reach for your lips, my knife to your throat
To hear you say, "We can't do this."

"Why not?" I scream in breaking tears
My voice cracks and the crowd gasps
"Why not?" your voice mimics me
I inhale sharply as I catch your honest laugh.

"You're everything that I love to hate.
Everything about you from your head to your toes,
I laugh at you every time you leave,
This love is fake and everyone knows."

I whimper and fall to my knees,
My heart sinks into the abyss in my soul
I catch your gaze and the eye of the barrel,
This ending is too real and out of control.

"How can this love be a fake
When I've given it everything I am?
Why are you so interested in what people say?
Who cares what they think, I don't give a damn!"

The crowd is on the edge of their seats now,
They still don't know this is more than a play,
That you and I move with every desire we have
And we speak all the words we have to say.

"Just shut up!" You scream, pulling me to my feet,
"Nothing you say can save you from death,
Its coming faster with every word you speak
So my dear don't waste your breath.

"Just leave what we had to pieces
Stop trying to fix what has been broken
And damnit you better believe my next words
I'll make you regret what you have spoken."

At this time, the light shatters through my tears
I laugh at once, my chest trembling in pain
I drop the knife and it slams on the ground
I look at you seriously, "I'm done playing this game."

My harsh sincerity takes you by surprise
I take my chance by facing the eager crowd
I spoke in a voice that I've never known
And my heartbeat drummed so loud.

"If its my life you wish to take
I can't imagine what you're waiting for.
I was going to give it to you anyways
But you don't seem to care for it anymore.

If its my heart you wish to capture,
I'm sorry to say that its now shattered
I recklessly gave it to a man I loved,
And it seems now that none of it mattered

If its my hatred, my anger that you're expecting,
Can't you see I've dropped my knife?
Yet you still stand before me with a gun
What more do you want than my life?

I've given you anything, everything you ever wanted
And still I love you and I think it shows,
If you think that this love is fake, look again
Because this time I think that everyone knows."

He looked at the audience, awed and in tears
His eyes narrowed over the fallen blade
It was my sacrifice and I'm weaponless,
The only choice I don't regret that I've made.

"I dare you." I whispered to him alone
So no one else could overhear
"I dare you, my dear, just do what you want.
You're a good actor and you've made that clear."

That being said, he raised his right arm
The loaded gun propped in his trembling hand.
The crowd gasped in fear as I began to laugh,
And the audience could finally understand.

-Sorry if it doesn't make so much sense but its more like a conversation going on in a performance."