I learned my lessons the hard way

I died today and god took my hand to show me that it wasn't my fault

i watched the other angels fly above my head
i wondered y they ended up dead

the bad part about heaven is no one can feel your fears worst of all they'll never c your tears

i ran to god and held his had
this world was never 4 me
i told him i didn't belong yet he just never could see

i watched my friends cry upon my grave- it was ripping the heart i finally got

i met my mom that died on me some years ago i was happy but i wanted more

in heaven theres no night now day
so i couldn't make my pain go away.

heaven felt as though i was dieing 5 times or more every cloud that floated by
i didn't belong and i couldn't cry.

last time i ran to god and exploded he let my tears come out
i told him i didn't mean to and all he could do was pout

i want to go home I'm killing myself i cant live this life just yet
please god i have a family a lot of friends don't forget.

i woke up and noticed i was on the ground
still that death letter was in my hand and that knife was on the ground

i hid them both ___ i learned my lessons __ my pain was gone!!!!!!!