How do i feel?

My friends read the poems i write
and i usaully dont care what i say

But now i do and therefore
cant write how i really feel

for i want to let it out but not to the ones who i love

or maybe not to even the ones i dont even know
because what I'm feeling is so friken low

its making me sad and wanting to go

its all the things that i hate in a person

and its all what makes me the reason I'm hurting