Love makes me low...

I sit here again
Crying my tears
I feel so alone
Like nobody cares

My life is a mess
It`s a living hell
Do you want to buy it?
Cause I`m ready to sell!

I want to get out
My life I want to get rid of
Once again feel safe
Without this thing called love

I want to get out
Dream of being free
But nobody would understand
Because they just don`t see

My life is fantastic
At least that`s what they think
But all that did change
In just a little blink

Truly grateful I was
Cause I had a great life
Living with my family
Dreaming of being his wife

But suddenly it changed
All it took was an random act
Then my life was shattered
Thats no lie, thats a fact

It`s hard to explain
I don`t know what to say
But the thing that happened
Made me completely loose my way

It was hard and violent
Truly cruel and intentional
And I can never go back
To living life so conventional

I know it`s hard to understand
Without me saying more
But going threw the details
That I just could not endure

All I know is I want out
To run away and hide
Away from all the troubles
And everyone who lied

But things aren`t that easy
I just cant seem to let go
My true feelings inside
I hide them so they don`t show

So what should I do
I still dont know
All that I know
Is that love makes me so low

Not that good.. I know. But somehow I just cant seem to write anything these days. And I still have a lot to vent ;)