That's Not What I Wanted To Say

You call
To see if I'm ok
I tell you nothing's wrong at all,
But that's not what I wanted to say.

You ask if I'm mad
Or upset.
I tell you I'm a little sad.
I just don't know what to say yet.

You ask what I'm thinking about.
Where do I start?
There's a huge amount!
How do I find the words in my heart?

I feel like an airless balloon.
You say you're not really going away.
I whisper,"Come home soon."
But that's not what I wanted to say.

The words stay tucked away
And I try to stay strong.
Because if I said what I wanted to say
It wouldn't change anything that's wrong.

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