Dear diary

Dear diary;

the day i knew i lost you is a day i wish i could forget, yet i know i never will. how could you leave me without any warning, without a sign of you not loving me any more. do you dislike me so much to display all the rudeness you've been showing me? I'm trying to let you go and run free without you, but without lifting a finger, you hold me back from where i want to go and who i want to be. they say if i truly love you i can let you go. yet i still cant think of my life without me in your arms. things seem to be changing in the blink of any eye. I'm sitting here wishing to be back with you, but wishing is what got me into this mess. now i see you with her and i silently hold back my tears. i hoped i would end up back with you, that you would change your mind and come back to me, back everything was before her. in my head i can imagine me as her, me smiling in your arms and her trying to hold back tears. but now I'm sure nothing will ever be the same i just hope you remember me and the way we used to be and wonder if things could of turned out differently and what could of happened. but now its all over and filled with to many ifs.

*i know its not a poem, its just a journal entry...but please rate and comment! thankies*