I've tried to forget

I've tried hard to forget
but you are all that i am,
and it's really hard,
forget what we had.
I wish i could tell you,
what things i've been going through
Everyday i wish i was dead,
i wish this was my last breath
i would like to never wake up again
i would like to put a gun to my head
and see you watch me go dead
every night i do nothing but cry
oh how i wish i could die
i cant stand anoter lie
i wish you could still be mine
again and again i tell myself
that love is just a stupid belief
Would you even care if i put a knife in front of my heart and stood infront of you and told you everything that's in my head.