Sometimes I cry when I think of you
Of how you left when I need you the most
You brought so much laughter to my life
So much warmth and happiness in my heart.
The days I spent with you are now just memories
All I have to remember you by are the photographs
That sit on the dresser beside the bed
Pictures of your beautiful smile, your kind gaze.
Sometimes I smile when I think of you
Of you how always looked on the bright side
You brought hope and faith to so many lives
Everyone loved you because of who you were.
You were the one everyone came to for advice
Never turning them away, you always
Helped those who needed help
You were everyone idol, everyone hero.
Sometimes I'm angry when I think of you
Of how everyone relied on you for everything
You never really had time for me
Every time I tried to be with you I got pushed away.
Always promised time spent later, time spent tomorrow
But what you never realized was that tomorrow never came
You never made the time for me, and because of it I hated you
You seemed to make promises more than you actually kept them.
But no matter how much time I spent without you
I know that you didn't mean to hurt me
You spent your entire life saving the lives of others
Putting the want and needs of others above your own.
Every day you left early and came home late
Working so hard on what would eventually be your downfall
Because you worked so hard at what you did
You became the hero so many held in their eyes.
I remember the day I lost you, the day you left forever
You had gotten mad because I missed the bus
And you had to drive me to school, making you late
We fought because you said I was irresponsible and lazy.
You hadn't been looking at the road, so you failed so see
That you had swerved into the other lane
And before I knew what happened our car was upside down
And you were lying there beside me, your eyes closed tightly.
I don't know how and I don't know why but somehow
I knew that you were gone, as I yelled your name
Knowing that you would never answer
You had lost so much blood, there was no coming back.
The last thing I ever said to you was that I hated you
The last emotion I felt towards you was anger
And as I stand here beside your grave
The only thing I feel now is emptiness.
I never got around to tell you that this, which is why I'm here today
I just wanted to say sorry for any pain I caused you
You meant the world to me, you gave me everything
And I repaid you by telling you I hated you.
I'm sorry for all the years I caused you to cry
I'm sorry I never loved you enough to tell you
I'm sorry that I made you mad
But most of all, I wanted to say.......I love you.
