Lost in my thoughts of utmost tranquility,
I come under loads of emotional crises,
In this world of several emotions,
Ones plight to a better place is sought by
Unlimited struggles with a beast of tomorrow,
I pick at a straw and put it in my mouth,
I taste the labor of the common man,
I am so lost myself today,
My insanity comes over me and makes me up for a rage,
I am filled with many new thoughts as old fade away,
Listening to my soul I find unrest instead of peace,
Everything seems to be against me, upfront to crush me,
This earth, its creatures, the ultimate god, all seems like a devil to me,
Pushing me, telling me to jump of a cliff,
They are against me being alive, pointing spears at me,
O my lady where are you today? O mother where are you today?
Neither are you my sister neither are my friends,
Come up above all the beings I fly today,
My wings calling me home,
The weather's getting worse as lighting strikes,
I collect my thoughts to get back home,
My head spins and body aches,
Down from the experience of dreadful spirituality,
What? What have I done?
A question must be asked, a fire must be put,
A way must be found, a path to be taken,
Come here to me my fairy fill me with love,
I am so full of solitude and haltered nothings ever that I feel,
I have become so dead, sitting in my room today,
I can hear my heartbeat; I can hear me breathe,
Things in front of me contract and expand,
It seems this whole world is on grids,
It seems so hollow to me,
I touch myself and feel nothing only this cold flesh,
If I take a deep breathe and look upon the stars far ahead,
In this moment of communication I fell I am already dead,
Only my heart beats and I breathe but all else is no more,
If I try and jump and fade it seems so new to me,
If I touch someone else it seems so new to me,
Captured in this cage of life, in between life & death,
I want death my dear god if you are there,
Listen to me, listen to my prayer,
Take me with you I don't belong here,
I feel so lost as if I have lost my life,
Need so much and gained so less.
