Why Couldn't You Be Saved?

How could you do this to them
How could you do it to me
Did you think it wouldn't hurt us
We love you, can't you see

I tried so hard to save you
I was always there
Tell me what's going on
Do you know how much I care

I saw the blood slowly drip
From you dark brown skin
It's killing me to see
This awful state you're in

Suicide isn't the answer
Please stop hurting yourself
Please listen to me
I'm only trying to help

After your first attempt
You told me you were done
And I believed you
But it had only just begun

You tried again a few days later
I barely found you in time
The crimson blood flowed down your wrists
Still you said that you were fine

The third time I wasn't there
And I feel so much guilt
You were slowly dying
Like a flower starting to wilt

They took you to the hospital
You needed blood and fast
They also needed to operate
Or else you wouldn't last

The operation didn't go well
They tried to stabilize your condition
I hope you will recover
On every star I'm wishing

As you lie there in a coma
They don't know if you will die
I'm more scared now than ever
I keep asking myself "Why?"

I went to your house
And just looked at all your things
I found a note with my name
On hand drawn angel wings

I went to the hospital
And sat next to your bed
I whispered all the things
I wish I could have said

I should have done more
I would have given my life
I would have done anything
To keep you from the knife

I read the note several times
You said your final good-bye
You told me not to blame myself
And begged me not to cry

You said your faith kept you going
And that you love me very much
You believed so strongly in god
But it just wasn't enough

They say you wont wake up
And if you do, your heart will fail
They say life support wont help for long
And that death will prevail

I keep expecting to wake up
And find that this is all dream
But it's more like a nightmare
I'm too scared to even scream

I cant believe your going to die
I don't want it to be true
But no matter where you go
I will always love you