Needle through my heart

Everything falls apart
And I'm left here in the dark
Remember the things that went on
Reminding myself youre gone

I'm laughing through the tears
And crying through the rage
I've never felt so hurt before
And there's only you to blame

I was such a fool
For ever believing in you
For trying to see what wasn't there
I let my own heart tear

Every word that I believed
Every lie that left me deceived
Every pain will make me bleed
And it's all because of you

Every time you said I love you
I took it to my heart
Every time you said something hurtful
I felt it tear apart
Every time you made me smile
It only lasted awhile
You were only ever out to hurt me

Don't you know...

I would have kissed away
Every falling tear
I would have held you in my arms
Forever near

I'd never let anyone hurt you
I'd stand in there way
And if you ever asked
You know I'd stay

I'll always

Remember the way you kissed me
Like I was something you didn't want to let go
I believed every word you told me that day
How was I to know...

To know you were lying
Like so many times before
Why am I always the one
That's left so sore

Now I just...

Watch you as you walk by
Through teary eyes
All the time

It hurts too much to say goodbye
It hurts too much inside

I don't want...

To think about it
I don't want to believe it
I want to go back and pretend its all ok
I don't want you to go away
I'm not ready

I don't want to hurt
Not like this
I just want you to hold me again
I just want to taste your kiss...

But now the rain just pours in my soul
As everything seems to fall apart
Because every word that I once believed
Now feels like a needle through my heart...

(Sorry it's a bit of mess, it was just a load of thoughts and feelings I quickly wrote down one night awhile ago)