I think it hurts so much now
because
you used to adore me
i used to adore you
and even though
we werent together long
we were in love
everybody knew it
and even though
things ended the way they did
i still do love you
but i wont let you know it
becuase
after the day i cried in school
after the day i cried for you
i promised myself
never again would you know
how i feel
and ive kept my word
everytime i saw you
i walked right past
i never said a word
i didnt call anymore
it was like all of a sudden
you just didnt exist
but you
you didnt let it go
quite that easily
you still always looked at me
and you always asked for hugs
you always made a point of it
to get my attention
and once in a while
you would even call
but eventually
after i didnt change my ways
you gave up
and now
you dont hug me anymore
in fact
you dont even talk to me
and i would be surprised
if you remember
my phone number
and right about now
i wish i could go back in time
to the day you asked me out
i would say no
and explain to you
i always want us to be friends
i would tell you
a relationship between us
just wouldnt work
and thinking about it
that would have been
so much better
because then
things wouldnt be they way
they are between us
and when people make fun of you
i wouldnt have to laugh
i could tell them to stop
i wouldnt have to silently think
\"god im in love with this boy\"
and even though
im involved with someone new
and i like him alot
it still hurts to think about you
it still hurts to think about us
but i could never tell you this
so i guess
this will always be
a secret
between me
these pages
and this pen
