This Isn't About Love, This Is About Hate

The first star I see
I make a wish
But I know a wish won't fix this
(Be careful what you wish for)
I've lost myself in this
Striving for your acceptance
Knowing I'll never get it
I can't let myself forget
Then I might have to forgive
For all that you've ever done to me
And for what you thought i did to you
You only get these words
(More like daggers)
I tried too hard
I tried to be like you
It's scarier to slip than to fall
I was afraid of what you thought
But I let you scream at me
Until my ears finally began to bleed
(Or was that my heart)
I digested every word you said
And let them make me sick
I was striving to stay alive
Reaching out for anyones hand
Just so I could have one last breath
(If only to shout back at you)
But I didn't show you that side
I didn't let it leak out
And now you're saying you don't want me
Why?
Because I'm different?
Because I'm not like you?
I don't understand
But at least I tried to