For you I could

As i stare beyond the black nothingness of the night
my hungry eyes rest upon the moon
Finding comfort in its welcoming nature,

The crisp cool wind cuts into my skin
piercing my heart as i mourn the loss of the love you once felt for me,

I long to hear your voice say my name
as if it was the sweetest sound to be heard,

As I think of you and what will never be
a tear escapes from my flooded eyes
It runs down my cheek and softly falls on my lap,

Shame falls over me for I know that what we shared wasn't truly real
at least not to the real world
the world beyond
you and me,

Yet I question how I was ever able to let you go out of my life forever

Maybe I was ignorant to make you mean so much to me
I showed you the real me
Trusted you with everything,

Maybe I am not ready to fall into loves grasp
but just because I wasn't in love with you
doesn't mean I'm incapable of caring just the same,

For you were always there to wipe my tears

Always there to pick me up every time I fell for you,

I wish things could be the same
Yet I realize
people change
feelings fade
and once was is soon forgotten,

A river now flows down my face
My vision is blurred
Yet everything seems more clear,

Softly i rest my head against my window
crying myself to sleep,

Among the moon and the wishes that have yet to be granted my heart shall remain
Waiting.